Things have changed a lot in the past few weeks. It kind of happened all at once...
Starting with the news from the last post that I think everyone already knows, I have a girlfriend. I'm dating Ilene, which is seems like many of the people who knew us are absolutely shocked by. For these people, I ask you to read my post about college/post college relationships. Yes, me and her had differences in college. She knows I wasn't a huge fan of who she was in school. But guess what? School is over. We are both starting our lives. And we have found that we love spending time together, and we get along very well. I am extremely happy to be with her and I hope it lasts for a long time.
I started my job at FOX on Monday as a voice captioner. Let me tell you, it is freakin difficult. Seriously, I don't think I have ever done anything so hard. I know I've only been there three days, but I'm already starting to doubt whether or not I can do it. Some people have the ability to do it and some don't. I'm worried that I don't. But I'm not one to give up, so I will keep trying until they fire me or I get it. Hopefully it's the latter.
Besides that, I'm just trying to get everything together. I keep forgetting that I'm actually here for school and that starts in a week. I'm honestly not looking forward to it. I'd still rather do the full-time job thing over going back to school, but what can I do? I'm committed.
To summarize, I'm happy. For once. Things still aren't where I want them but I feel like they are moving in the right direction, which is a huge step over the past year. Ilene, I want you to thank you for giving me a chance and I hope I don't let you down. <3
Song Currently Stuck in my Head:
Never Let You Down - The Verve Pipe
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
For My Friend Charlie....
I've never been that good at expressing feelings through talking. I've always done it through writing, and it has always made me feel a little better, so I'm going to see if that I apply that logic to help a friend in need.
An old friend of mine from school, Charlie, just lost his mother. I don't know the circumstances around it so I have no idea if she was suffering or not.
I remember the summer before Charlie came to Hartford, we were recruiting for STN and all I remember seeing was Charlie's name on every sign up sheet we had. I remember asking the d-board, "who the hell is this kid?" I was concerned we had a stalker. I was a bit wrong.
He joined the organization and was instantly a hit, basically because he had passion like nobody I had seen before and he was honestly talented. I was obligated in school to say every reporter we had was good, but let's be honest, they weren't. Charlie was. And he loved it. He worked hard, impressed us all, and was friendly. He joked around a lot, always had a smile on his face and was fun to be around.
He worked so hard that after only one year, he was elected News Director. And I honestly was really excited to come back and work with him. And naturally, after only a few weeks, Charlie got the unfortunate news that he couldn't stay at the school and had to leave.
I have one memory that sticks out in my mind, and that was his going away party, and how you could tell how many people liked him. At that party, EVERYONE from STN was there, people who, in a million years, wouldn't hang out together outside of the office, were all there to say goodbye to him. It was one of those things that stuck out in my mind.
Even after he was shipped down to Florida, he still kept in touch. When he came back to play a show or visit, he would always let everyone know so we could see him. OH, and of course, the night me and Ilene went to see Alex's roller derby bout, and Charlie and his friend Kevin were there. We ended up hanging out that night, driving around Morristown and getting pretty freakin lost. That was awesome. Sorry, sidetracked.
Anyway, I get sad because Charlie was plenty of depressing statuses and stuff and I just want something good to happen for him. I look around and see so many good things happening to people who don't deserve it, and to someone who truly does deserve it, nothing.
Charlie, I'm so sorry about your mother. Keep your head held high though buddy. You have been an excellent friend to everyone and I know you will be rewarded for it soon.
And if you need us, you know your STN family will always be there for you. Stay strong, my friend.
An old friend of mine from school, Charlie, just lost his mother. I don't know the circumstances around it so I have no idea if she was suffering or not.
I remember the summer before Charlie came to Hartford, we were recruiting for STN and all I remember seeing was Charlie's name on every sign up sheet we had. I remember asking the d-board, "who the hell is this kid?" I was concerned we had a stalker. I was a bit wrong.
He joined the organization and was instantly a hit, basically because he had passion like nobody I had seen before and he was honestly talented. I was obligated in school to say every reporter we had was good, but let's be honest, they weren't. Charlie was. And he loved it. He worked hard, impressed us all, and was friendly. He joked around a lot, always had a smile on his face and was fun to be around.
He worked so hard that after only one year, he was elected News Director. And I honestly was really excited to come back and work with him. And naturally, after only a few weeks, Charlie got the unfortunate news that he couldn't stay at the school and had to leave.
I have one memory that sticks out in my mind, and that was his going away party, and how you could tell how many people liked him. At that party, EVERYONE from STN was there, people who, in a million years, wouldn't hang out together outside of the office, were all there to say goodbye to him. It was one of those things that stuck out in my mind.
Even after he was shipped down to Florida, he still kept in touch. When he came back to play a show or visit, he would always let everyone know so we could see him. OH, and of course, the night me and Ilene went to see Alex's roller derby bout, and Charlie and his friend Kevin were there. We ended up hanging out that night, driving around Morristown and getting pretty freakin lost. That was awesome. Sorry, sidetracked.
Anyway, I get sad because Charlie was plenty of depressing statuses and stuff and I just want something good to happen for him. I look around and see so many good things happening to people who don't deserve it, and to someone who truly does deserve it, nothing.
Charlie, I'm so sorry about your mother. Keep your head held high though buddy. You have been an excellent friend to everyone and I know you will be rewarded for it soon.
And if you need us, you know your STN family will always be there for you. Stay strong, my friend.
College/Post College
This is directed at those of you who are either currently in a relationship or have experienced one during college and after.
This may be a bit delayed, but I've been delayed, so whatever.
When me and Beth broke up, she said to me that maybe we made for a good couple, but not a good real-life couple. At the time, I was so upset that I couldn't even process what she said and I just moved on from it. But recently, I've started thinking about it and realized that that was actually a pretty profound statement. It got me wondering, what is the difference between the two and can two people who were in love in college really just not work after college because of the change?
So what's the difference?
College
You live within minutes of each other, so you can see each other whenever, but you aren't obligated to see each other all the time
If one goes out, the other usually goes with
Both usually have the same friends, or close enough
Money isn't usually an issue
Neither is a job
Big life decisions, such as marriage and kids usually wait until after college
(I think I hit the fundamental flaw on the last three)
Post-College
If you are living together, you very rarely are able to get away from the person
Decisions such as money and who you are spending time with suddenly become joint decisions
Careers as well
And of course, life decisions such as marriage come into play
And that is partially where my relationship fell apart. Partially. And ever since Beth told me about this, I look at relationships in that light.
It's funny, because now I look at people in school who I never in a million years would've dated while they were in school and I see them differently because of who they turned into after school. Horrible college couple, maybe not a horrible after-college couple.
So I wonder if anybody else sees people that way, I'm interested. It's kind of a weird way to look at relationships. But I think it works.
Song Currently Stuck in my Head:
Closer to the Truth and Further from the Sky - Butch Walker
This may be a bit delayed, but I've been delayed, so whatever.
When me and Beth broke up, she said to me that maybe we made for a good couple, but not a good real-life couple. At the time, I was so upset that I couldn't even process what she said and I just moved on from it. But recently, I've started thinking about it and realized that that was actually a pretty profound statement. It got me wondering, what is the difference between the two and can two people who were in love in college really just not work after college because of the change?
So what's the difference?
College
You live within minutes of each other, so you can see each other whenever, but you aren't obligated to see each other all the time
If one goes out, the other usually goes with
Both usually have the same friends, or close enough
Money isn't usually an issue
Neither is a job
Big life decisions, such as marriage and kids usually wait until after college
(I think I hit the fundamental flaw on the last three)
Post-College
If you are living together, you very rarely are able to get away from the person
Decisions such as money and who you are spending time with suddenly become joint decisions
Careers as well
And of course, life decisions such as marriage come into play
And that is partially where my relationship fell apart. Partially. And ever since Beth told me about this, I look at relationships in that light.
It's funny, because now I look at people in school who I never in a million years would've dated while they were in school and I see them differently because of who they turned into after school. Horrible college couple, maybe not a horrible after-college couple.
So I wonder if anybody else sees people that way, I'm interested. It's kind of a weird way to look at relationships. But I think it works.
Song Currently Stuck in my Head:
Closer to the Truth and Further from the Sky - Butch Walker
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