It's been awhile since I have last written. I'm sitting on the couch on the top floor of the house down the shore by myself. We have this house because my stepdad was working on it and the guy who owns it gave us some time to use it in return for his services. Anyway, it's 11:30 on my birthday and I'm reflecting.
My sister is home. It's been great seeing her. She leaves for England next week for a month. I hope she has fun.
We went up to Quinnipiac on Thursday. Honestly, I've never had a more stressful trip. Part of was my own fault because I honestly just didn't want to go. My mother was stressing me out to no end and I just wanted to turn around, go home and go back to sleep. But we made it and I'm glad we did.
I met my advisor for the first time, a guy by the name of Richard Hanley. He has worked for Time Magazine among plenty of other things. I like him. He is extremely down-to-earth and doesn't set ridiculously unrealistic goals for anybody, including himself. He talks a lot, but I don't think that is a bad thing.
The best part of the trip was talking about jobs. My biggest concern about going to grad school was always that I'd graduate, and be back in the same spot I'm in now, where I can't find anything. The way he made it sound is that plenty of students actually get full-time jobs while still in school and QU is such a close-knit alumni group that a lot of them serve as contacts for each other. Regardless, I feel a lot better about being able to find a job either while I'm there or after. I feel more confident about my decision to go back.
It's been a very odd last couple of weeks. I can't really get into too many details, but I'm trying to put everything together. I'm not sure how I'm feeling. I'm confused, happy, sad, lonely, all at once.
I'm back in touch with Anna, which in my opinion is a good thing. She has always been there for me and we've gone back and forth for years. Beth hated her because of a couple stupid things she found between us, but now that she is out of the picture, I have no reason to not talk to her anymore. Things are good between us, and that makes me happy.
Ugh.
Random Compliment:
Anna- I'm glad we are back in touch. You know my problems with you in the past. I'm here to say that I absolutely love the person you have become. You've made some mistakes as we all have but I believe you learn from them better than anybody I know. You've been there for me now for 8 years and I wish I could've been there for you for 8 years. I will try harder now though, I promise.
Song currently stuck in my head:
Miss Hollywood- Carbon Leaf
R.I.P Kyle
