The Last Few Days...

So, for those of you not aware, my mother is in the hospital. On Thursday, she came home early from work with serious stomach pains and laid down. About two hours and a useless doctor consult later, she asked me to drive her to the emergency room. She went in for a CAT scan, and (for privacy reasons I won't tell you what she has) but she had a serious, yet not uncommon illness. The doctors told her to lay off any solid foods for a few days (plus some antibiotics) and she should be good to go. On Saturday, for breakfast and lunch the doctors gave her some solid food in the hospital and she kept it down alright, so she was released to us Saturday night with a strict diet. 


We had dinner Saturday night at home and everything seemed to be okay. She was a little sore but she was still on meds and we all went to sleep last night thinking everything was back to normal.


At 9:15 this morning, I was woken up by my mother's voice telling me she was in severe pain again and Scott was driving her back to the hospital. I showed up a few minutes after they got there, and the rest of the day has been hell. At first, we thought she would definitely need surgery. After they did another CT scan in the ER, it sounded like she just needed a few days of a liquid diet (longer than last time), and she could be released again. After the surgeon came in and looked at her CT scan, now we have to wait 24-48 hours and if she doesn't improve, it looks like surgery again.


This isn't a life-threatening illness, but it is still scary as hell. My mother is one of the strongest people I know, and she doesn't complain about pain unless it is really bad. To have her end up in the hospital is something new to me. My mother is never sick. Now she may have to spend a week or more in the hospital. To say this is trying me would be a dramatic understatement.


It's even tougher because of the absence of my sister. She is in San Diego and obviously there is no way she can fly across the country to be here, even though I know how badly she wants to. My family uses humor to get through tough situations and Jamie is my go-to-girl for humor. Not having her here is difficult. I know it's worse on her. I love you Jamie, and just know that we know you would be here if you could and you are here in spirit. Stay strong.


I'm moving in 12 days and that has taken a complete backseat to this at the moment. I haven't really thought about packing up or finding a job. All I want is for my mother to be home and healthy.


It's tough to be alone right now. Outside of my sister, there is only one person who I wish was with me right now and she knows who she is. It sucks that the people I want to see are the people who I am incapable of seeing. 


Stay strong Mom. I love you so much. 


Please keep her in your thoughts.


Song Currently Stuck in my Head:
Awake My Soul- Mumford & Sons


R.I.P Kyle

Casey Anthony

This will probably be an unpopular post, but I don't care.


The uproar surrounding Casey Anthony's not guilty verdict has gotten to the point where I have to say something.


She was found NOT guilty people. I love how as soon as the verdict comes out, every single person in the world apparently pulled out their law degree. We all are now top lawyers. "She was guilty! Look at all the evidence that one network I watched for an hour showed me as to why she was guilty! HOW could she be found innocent?"


Look, as Americans we give the jurors and the judges the power to make these decisions. We have to live with the decisions we get. I have no idea if Casey Anthony killed her daughter or not, but guess what? Neither do you. The only person who knows for sure is Casey Anthony. The jurors made the decision that she did not do it. So in my eyes, she did not do it. You have no right to say anything if she was found innocent.

I've been hearing that some of the jurors are actually receiving death threats. Seriously? America, grow up. What happened to "innocent until proven guilty"? Not in this trial. The second this woman stepped up to the stand, the media and public were convinced of her guilt. And you know what? You were proven wrong. I loved watching CNN with the one expert who KNEW she was going to be guilty based on how long deliberations went on, and then had to eat his words when the verdict came out. So much for being unbiased.


Unless you were in the courtroom, one of the jurors, or a lawyer working on this case, you do not know all evidence and you have no right to be making verdicts of your own. This was an impossible decision this jury had to make and I'm sure it took its tole on them.


I'm not saying we should feel sorry for this woman. She obviously is an idiot, a waste of life, lied to detectives at least four times and probably should be rotting in jail for the rest of her life. But she isn't. She will be released on July 13th and we all need to accept that. If you can't accept that, either go to law school, become a judge, or shut the hell up.


R.I.P Kyle. And Caylee.